R.I.P. Jana Alleyne

I just received the devastating news that Jana Alleyne, a childhood friend, passed away on Wednesday. I believe that I am lucky enough, with all the craziness going on in the world today, to have her be the first friend of mine to leave us on this earth. It makes it harder to digest being that the police believe that she committed suicide. She was found hanging from her ceiling, however the police claim that it would have been impossible for her to do it based on the way she was hanging. As bad as it may sound, I hope she was killed because there is no forgiveness from suicide. I can't imagine how her younger brother feels though; he was the one that found her. As I've already expressed to them, my condolences go out to the family

R.I.P Jana

What the Heeeellll??

Soooo I got my braces off today. Yaaay, yaaay...blah, blah, blah, wateva. You know those suckers weren't even going to take them off. I'm sitting there in the chair, after waiting a freaking hour, and the head orthodontist comes over and tells his assistant some b.s. about doing some adjustments to my rubberbands. I said what the hell?! So I told her quick that I was told that I was getting them off today. She asked me a few more questions and then realized that Dr. Bythewood was a little off his rocker today. Then I had to wait another half hour to finally get done what I should have in the first place. For anybody that wants to know if the process hurts the answer is yes and no. For the most part it doesn't, but they had to scrape off the glue which felt like I was getting my teeth pulled on my bottom middle teeth. That was enough pain to settle for having my braces on forever. It feels weird without them though. If you've ever had gum and stuck it underneath your top lip to act like it was a grill or braces when you were a kid (clearly I have lol), then you know how I'm feeling right now. I haven't felt my gums in almost five years so it's probably going to take me a week or so to get used to it. Now don't even get me started on the positioner. Besides the fact that it tastes like rubber (that can be fixed), I CAN'T FREAKING TALK. The fricking thing is like a mouth guard. Maaan this isn't looking good for me. I'm not supposed to wear it if I know I'm going to be talking alot. Well looks like I won't be wearing it.

it's been real peoplez ---> DEUCES

For the Moment

This entry was supposed to be about my mom and how she pissed me off while I was down in North Carolina, calling me selfish and then turns around acts the same way. But we'll talk about this another day because she just did something really nice for me and I feel bad. Trust me I know there will be plenty of days when she'll make me want to write what I originally wanted again. And my sister says I have no heart or soul...watev.

its been real peoplez ---> DEUCES

Never Cease to Amaze Myself

Well camp ended the Friday before last. Last year I would be jumping for joy, but this year it was a bittersweet ending. As you know I had rising third grade boys for the most part compared to my second grade girls last year. And I must like boys better or something because surprisingly I miss them...well the ones that I liked. One of my kids, and my favorite, Richie, asked where I was going to be working next year. I told him I didn't know, but it wouldn't be here. When I asked him why he said so that he could come visit me. That actually made me want to come back next year...for a few minutes. And then I snapped backed to reality. Richie's not even coming back next year anyway. But say I was to think about it, let's weigh out the pros and cons. Pros: 1. love some kids 2. you get some really good laughs from kids falling, the crazy ish they say, etc....umm yea so let's do the cons. Cons: 1. get paid under minimum wage 2. tired as hell everyday 3. getting a tan = blacker than black 4. I have like 5 bruises 5. getting paid UNDER MINIMUM WAGE. So yea looks like the cons list wins. But knowing me, I wouldn't be surprised if I ended up back there czu I have no type of luck. Guess we have to wait to find out.

it's been real peoplez ---> DEUCES

Untitled

This entry isn't particularly an entry. more like an introduction. Since I've been gone for a while I have so much to talk about. So what's more pleasing to the eye? One long ass novel or a few mini ones that you can come back and read later? I'll take a few mini ones for 500 Bob. You know I take a few breaks when I'm getting carpal tunnel...you guys can take some popcorn breaks. It all works out. Soooo I'm taking that first break now...be back in a few luvs.

its been real peoplez ---> DEUCES