Last night I wrote my first poem in about 2,3 years. I used to write all the time in high school...and usually about the same person. I can't just write just to write; I have to be feeling so much of an emotion that it just comes to me. But for the first time I wasn't sad, I wasn't mad, and I wasn't overjoyed about anything, just felt like writing about myself. I entitled it "Virgo" and described how I fit and don't fit with the usual characteristics of a Virgo. Right after finishing something (I have no idea what) just inspired talk about all the major guys that have come and gone, romantically, in my life. To make it interesting I attempted to use as many Kanye West (I was listening to him all day) songs in the poem as I could. Ultimately I used 30 songs. Some you won't even realize it's a song title unless I point it out. All of the guys are named after songs and the rest are just mixed in there. It's kind of long so sorry about that. But anyway here it is....
~The Good, The Bad, The Ugly~
And so the saga begins outside a church, some years back
He caught my eye interrupting me and his sister's game of Miss Mary Mack.
My first boyfriend, thought he was a keeper, fa sure,
'Til his phone got cut, being shallow said I'm good, no more.
Always out chasin' street lights never to see graduation day,
Now I call him Mr. Flashing Lights 'cuz he got that good ass job working for Kanye.
The next one approached me with a note sent through his big brother,
Weirdly enough they have the same name, same father, but different mothers.
Moved across America and got paranoid, thought I was getting a "Ta, Ta",
But beat him to it, couldn't take the madness, said "Au revoir".
Last time we spoke he was making crack music, said "Baby, we major!"
Gave my congrats but he took me through the wire, maybe some other girl can save ya.
Third on the list is "Roses", named him that 'cuz he's so sweet,
Light as Chris Brown, but not smooth enough to sweep you off your feet.
Loved everything I am and begged me "Say you will too".
I tried but couldn't, felt real bad that he had no clue.
That was one of the coldest winters, ended it a week after Valentine's Day,
But I think he still has feelings for me even to this day.
"Welcome to Heartbreak" is written across the following guy's vest,
Thought he was my Superman, rockin' the "S" on his chest,
Spent every moment we could together, arguably my first love,
Then he broke my heart in two, got to the point where we didn't even hug.
Got over it and we eventually became the best of friends,
But still he has an addiction for my sex, though we agreed that would end.
After him comes "Playa, Playa", the one notorious for not being a good boy,
Met him through a mutual friend, couldn't resist, I needed a new toy.
He runs with those heavy hitters, you know the type, living the good life,
But now and then I keep him at a distance, heard 'em say he's a bit trife.
Stopped talking over a stupid arguement, 'cuz I told him I knew he had a girl,
Now he thinks I want him, but it's the other way around, I'm back in HIS world.
Now this next one I call "Breathe In, Breathe Out",
Smoked so much weed he didn't know his up from down.
Deaded me on some next ish, but he did me a favor now that I realize,
Ran into him a year later, asked me to be his girl, tryna apologize.
Said he wasn't ready back then, he was just scared,
Had to tell my girls about that one, yea, we don't care.
Following that is "Workout Plan", yea that's what I'm calling him,
A bit on the skinny side, dude needs to hit those weights at the gym.
But I'm not writing this to play no one, he was a real cutie,
Everything started out good, which all falls down, that I believe truly.
Started treating me like I was a Robocop, giving me timelines, telling me everything he was doing,
I wasn't really interested, but by then it was too late, the poison was already brewing.
After him is "Gold Digger", who I wouldn't give the time of day in the beginning,
Eventually gave in, thought I was livin' in a movie, had to ask myself, "Am I really winning?"
Then he hit me with the okie doke and asked me for diamonds from Sierra Leone,
Told him "You're clearly out of your mind", he ain't like that so he left me alone.
We're real cool now though, that's my homie, no doubt,
Still every once in a while I have to roll my eyes and say "wow".
Last but not least is "Drop Dead Gorgeous", the best looking one, cross my heart,
But he's always impossible to reach, I knew there was something wrong, I said it from the start.
I wonder how he keeps a girl around long enough to have any kind of fun,
But he's about to get a "Good Night", and I don't mean the type when you wake up together to see the sun.
So that's it in a nutshell, at least the major ones, trust me,
All together I like to call them, "The Good, The Bad, The Ugly".
Let me know if you like it, but "keep in mind that I'm an artist...and I'm sensitive about my shit." lol -Erykah Badu "Tyrone (Live)" Had to throw it in there.
...it's been real luvs ---> DEUCES
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