Ok so I told him...well I didn't exactly verbalize it, but I made it pretty evident. Truthfully though I'm actually scared of what it could be. One of the things I was looking forward to with graduating was that if I did get into a relationship it wouldn't have to be long distance anymore. Of course, being the person that I am, that didn't work out to my favor. Possibly more than half of my relationships during college were long distance. So I guess the good thing with that is at least I know I can handle it. Bad thing is at least with those relationships (eventhough they didn't last) I knew we would be in the same place eventually. Unfortunately this time he's in Philly and probably will be there the rest of his life. I, however, have no intentions on moving back to Philly ever again. That's the first con. Second con: he's still in school, and will be for quite some time. (He's going to be in the medical field...yea, crazy schooling.) But it's still early. I'm not going to address the issues until it (possibly) gets serious. Only thing that matters right now is that he's a great person. And for the first time ever I have to worry about hurting him and not him hurting me. (Anything can happen though.) So what am I really scared of then? I'm scared to fall in love with someone whose face I can't see everyday, who I have to imagine I'm cuddling with, whose habits I can't learn. But for now we'll just play it by ear, take it day by day.
....it's been real luvs ---> DEUCES
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