Apologies Are Due

So I've found out the truth about my so-called "date". Turns out it wasn't, dude was just trying to chill, which is what I originally thought but watev. Apparently people are as flirtacious as I am without knowing it. Sorry to the person I offended. I never meant to come across as mean as I did, to me and my friends it just sounds funny, but guess not. I typically won't say anything either unless I understand why someone would get mad at what I said and I do right now. But as far as saying all I have to say about this issue, I'm not one to express what I have to say thru a middleman, (IF I want that person to know, which is the case) that being my blog. But this is part of my peace offering.
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Recklessness

Want to hear something funny? So Raggedy-Ann hits me up last night saying that he saw me the other day and that I lied to him and said I was no longer in Philly, which never happened. I have no reason to lie to him and if I did tell him I was back in NY it was probably the weekend I went home, which was probably the case, but since he's a weed head he more than likely couldn't decipher everything I said. But that's not the funny part. The funny part is this idiot suggested that we participate in an extra-curricular activity together; specifically "hot summer sex". "LMAO right," was my response. His response, "So does that mean yes?" See what I mean...weed head. I told him it means "you're not serious with your life." You know what this man had the nerve to say to me? " Oh ok, that means yes because you don't have self control, so what time should I come?" I had to stop and really laugh at the boldness of this human. (And I do have self control...just got it, but that 's beside the point.) By the time I regained my composure I confessed that he could come anytime he wanted but suggested that he bring something for him to get comfortable in the lobby of my apt with. He didn't even get offended...shows how much of a derf he knows he is. He kept insisting that he come over until I told him I was on my period then all of sudden it was, "I don't care. I just want to kick it." So you badger me for at least 45 minutes about having sex when you really just want to chill...right, and I'm a dumb white man from Texas. So my pride, my common sense, and devious side argued with each other as to what I should do. Either let him come over to prove that I do have self control, tell his behind to stay home, or let him sit in the lobby for hours while I claim every few minutes that I'm coming to let him in. But then he went off on a tangent, telling me that he just got a dog. 1. I don't care 2. I don't like dogs and 3. I don't care. And I told him all three of my feelings so that's where the conversation ended (thank you). Even to this moment I don't know which part of me would have won that argument but I'm happy that I never had to come up with a conclusion in the end. I'll probably hear from his behind in another few days since he unfortunately keeps popping up. ::rolling my eyes:: What joy!

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Can I Live?

Been gone for a minute, now I'm back with the jump off...sorry couldn't resist lol. Anyway I have no explanation for my small hiatus so let's just skip that part. Lately I've been really stressed out. In a nutshell, there's too many guys trying to talk to me right now. Thought I would never see the day when I could honestly say that. The problem is that I have a hard time turning guys down. I feel like the only way for me to do so is to be mean which I fully know how to do but I don't want to (unless the guy is a dick then it's a must). Because of this I'm nice for too long which tends to lead dudes on. First example, this guy Jason (changed name). I basically had one conversation with the guy and he thinks I'm interested in him...get real. He asks me for my number and like the idiot I am I give it to him thinking he's just asking since he's always having parties. And since it's summer and no one's around I'm more lenient with distributing my info; one of the biggest mistakes of my summer. He was constantly calling me, inviting himself over and what not, which I quickly told him it's not happening. Took me about 2-3 weeks to get rid of him and that only happened czu I told him just let me know whenever he's having a get together me and my "boyfriend" will come over. The "boyfriend" is a whole 'nother story for a whole 'nother day. So I guess you can say that I was very happy to get rid of him but then another one comes along. Now the story of , we'll call him Tyshawn, is a tricky one. I pretty much got swindled into going on a date with this guy. He asked me to go to the city with him and at first I was going to say no but then I figured it would be fun since it was random. It wasn't the first time I chilled with him before either, both of our roommates are usually around but they were both busy so I thought that's why they weren't invited...WrOnG!!! I finally figured it out, 2 hours into the outing, that this guy thought that I thought I was going on a date. Now I had full intentions on paying for my food but he had other plans. That's when the day when from fun to uh oh. Suddenly I was trying to find ways to let him know that he was on a one way street that was nowhere to be found on my map. And I thought he got it until he told me that he's persistent. "Shit!!" was all I could think of. It was just too much for me. I just finished getting rid of one annoying guy, can I get a fucking break?! I had to run home to escape Philly, which turned out great with the exception of me catching a cold on the way home. However, there was one idiot that I had a small conversation with on the way home that found himself trying to add his behind on the list of guys trying to talk to me but I easily shut him down czu he called himself being cocky and didn't know that I could see through his fake persona. I don't get it. I show absolutely no interest to these guys, all I have to say is "hi" and they think it's an opening. Pish posh negroes, PISH POSH!! Anyway, everything's all good now, besides this stupid cold, FRICK!!

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Yes We Can!!!

I was supposed to be going to sleep early today but the excitement that I have from the news I just heard is keeping me up. I don't mean to sound cliche', but yes, history has been made. For all that don't know, Barack Obama has won the democratic nomination!!! But the feeling I get isn't just of happiness or victory, it's a mix of emotions. First let me say that I am in complete shock. Not to say that I didn't think he could do it, but in this country that I call home the odds were completely against him. See the United States of America is a country that allows for a black man to be shot 50 times because of the color of his skin but still claims to be racially equal. Well let me break it down for you. This is how the totem pole works :white man..........white woman...black woman, black man (the last two are vice versa depending upon the situation). So for this country to allow a black man to beat a white woman, in anything, that's really saying something. Do you understand that the only thing in the way of Barack Obama, a black man, from running this country is only one person...just one other nominee. Any other time that you heard of a black man running for president he was at the bottom of the barrel...pulled out quicker than Rudy Giuliani. Besides the shock, I feel an immense sense of pride. I'm proud of the influx of black people that came out to vote for this election. Don't quote me on this, but I believe this has been the largest recorded turnout of black voters. I'm especially proud of my generation. I think , no I know, that we played a major role in helping Barack Obama obtain the presidential nomination. If we weren't voting than we were spreading the word somehow, some way. And I'm proud of Hillary Clinton for getting as far as she did. Even though, according to my "totem pole" she is regarded higher than Barack Obama, she is still a female running in a typical male field, so I applaud her for that. Anger is also a part of my list of emotions. Clearly I don't feel angry because of the outcome of the events, I feel angry because I personally didn't do everything that I could have to help the person I want to run my country. I'm witnessing a part of history, but I wasn't a part of it. I had at least two chances to partake in this historical event, although my lack of participation wasn't necessarily my fault. I didn't vote, for reasons that were already discussed in a previous blog (I'd rather not go over the details again, I'll just get even more irritated), and I also had the opportunity to help in voter recruitment, but I never received a call back. Regardless of the fact that both of these opportunities were out of my hands I still feel some type disappointment in myself, because I believe that there was something else that I could have done, even if it wasn't in front of my face there was something. All I know is that I will be the first person on that line on Tuesday, November 4th...might even do an absentee ballot, it'll get there quicker. But most of all I'm ecstatic. I'm so happy I could cry...literally, but all my other emotions are keeping me from doing so. Barack Obama has won the Democratic presidential nomination. I keep saying it to myself but it seems so surreal. To think that a change could really be coming. I mean in no way do I expect it to happen overnight but we are making progress. Just to think that one day there will be no such thing as racism or sexism or religious intolerance because we won't teach our children what these words mean, let alone how to practice them. With all the crime, inequality, and indecency that goes on in this country I used to think that it was far from the day that would come when I could hold my head up high and be proud to say that I am an American. I can't express how it feels for me to say that that day has finally come...well there goes that tear.

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