...if I could answer that question for you I would but I can't, so that's that. Anyway for the past 18 minutes (yea I said 18) I've been thinking about what it would feel like to enforce the heartbreak on every man that has broken my heart. I immediately think of three guys, which scares me because I've always tried to deny to myself (and everybody else) that I have had deep feelings for the second man. Now that I think of it, I probably can't really call it "heartbreak" since I haven't been in love since the first guy...well if I was I wasn't aware of it. (Na I couldn't have been) But they definitely made a deep impact. I'm sitting here imagining how it would feel to tell each of them that after everything I don't care about you and I'm not really interested to know how you feel, but you'll be aight. Surprisingly no smile comes to my face with this thought, which I really don't understand. Could be that I've tried payback on one of them and it didn't work...(it actually backfired on me and I ended up with having feelings again [real nice]) or could be that I would really rather just be happy again and in love with someone else. It's a feeling I've been missing for too long now and I'm realizing that this could possibly be why my current hiatus from men has been the absolute pitts. Now this has me thinking even more.
...it's been real luvs --->DEUCES
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